christmas is coming...

11.05.2010

and for the sake of my husband's sanity, i am going to make a list. this list will NOT include summer sausage or smoked cheese.

these are just ideas of nice things. i know that christmas is not about presents, but having one thing in my stocking this year would be nice. even if its just a STARBUCKS GIFTCARD and a candy cane.

i would like...

... an inexpensive (like $15) waffle iron. that way we could spend some time making and freezing waffles instead of freaking out that the last eggo got burned, and i can't go to the commissary til tomorrow.

... some nice soaps from LUSH.

... did you know I have a knitpicks wishlist?

... a blythe doll, even if its the blythe loves littlest pet shop doll.

... a clean bathroom and shower.

... to sleep in a couple of times.

... to go to the knit group at panera, and maybe a giftcard there so i can stuff myself with cake and coffee while i knit my dearest some socks.

... yarn school! i have wanted to go for almost 4 years now, and i just keep having babies. maybe this spring?

... for my dearest to take random days off, for no reason at all, other than to spend time with me.

... to win the lotto, so i can pay for everyone's kid's school and college, and my ma can retire.

thats all i can think of...

except for a new trashcan since i just noticed that you broke the lid off the one we have!

edit:11.08.2010

... a pizza stone

i am tired.


that is all.

sure its been a rough night. the heartburn is back. jake won't sleep, there was the bath time incidentS, but i have found what makes me feel better. a little bit more Tori and a lot less Mom.

tonight i changed the drive band, and readjusted my spinning wheel. i also put on the new bobbin i got, and the feeds. all this whilst listening to genius on itunes. nothing like old and new technology coming together in harmony to make everything better.

thank you They Might be Giants, the Breeders, SantoGold, Bjork, and Sonic Youth! i can go on a little longer without my brain oozing out of mine ears!

oh... and Cibo Mato too...

20 minutes of reading...

i finally figured out the reason i dislike reading to liz so much... well... some of the reasons...

rarely do i enjoy the books.
i dislike having to make jake sit and listen (i think it takes about the same amount of time)
but the biggest reason is...
ALWAYS in the back of my mind is a hundred other things that need to be done. laundry that needs to be folded, trash that needs to be taken out, the dog that needs in. and reading for twenty minutes is such a non multitasking task, that it drives me bananas! i much prefer to vacuum, or make beds, while doing the laundry and dishes. at least at the end of those twenty minutes there is a tangible difference.
but the reading is so intangible.
i somewhat feel like it is time wasted (although i KNOW its not). it is hard for me to slow down, and appreciate her growing brain, to see that like me (and countless other kids) she has wanted to squeeze all the toothpast out of the tube.
but i have to. i have to slow down.
and although i CAN take care of business in a flash, i need to savor those moments where it is just us, and our love of books.

thoughts on being preggo.

so, by now everyone knows i am pregnant (even flange), and i thought i would share some feelings on this particular pregnancy.

this itty bitty little bean inside me is making my body plum loco! and i am having a hard time dealing with it. i feel like i need twenty hours of sleep a day, and to be constantly eating. my blood sugar is known to plummet, and i am reduced to a trembling confused mess of a mom who tends to yell quite easily.

i think the best way to say it is: I am out of control.

i don't know what my body needs (water, a vitamin, nap?), i have lost control of my house (there is stuff everywhere, and it isn't getting any better), i just have no clue.

when i was pregnant with liz, pat was deployed, and i had a job, and some friends, and was fine to come home afterwork, and embroider and eat cold chicken, and watch law and order.
when i was pregnant with jake, pat had a 8-4 job, and would help out around the house, and dutifully bring me jack in the box tacos, and pepsi from taco bell.
now that i am pregnant again, pat is gone, and i have two kids and a dog counting on me to feed them, and know nobody that i would trust to leave my kids with while i get a much needed hair cut.

i miss my husabnd right now. i miss that i could go to target by myself, and that we could trade kids and look at books at the bookstore. i miss his corny jokes, and they way that if i don't want to cook he is more than happy with mexican pizza. i miss that he knows to take the kids to play at the park while i clean up after dinner, and have ten minutes of quiet to myself. i hope the rest of this deployment goes as fast as possible, and that my better half will be home soon. then i might be able to get things under control... at least before this new one comes...

TODAY IS THE GREATEST...

well... not THE greatest, but it is pretty darn great! Jake is well on his way to being potty trained. he went once because of me, and then again on his own (on his own meaning he told me "potty")! i think it could be the fact that he likes m&ms, and he gets one whenever he goes (not just try... he has to go). it also helps me that liz is encouraged to take him to the pot too. if he goes she gets an m&m too. i am hoping by the end of summer we will be done, for the most part, with diapers... for now.

also on great news going on today... i got my Phat Fiber box. i had to refresh a page for two minutes, but i got it! YAY!!! it is going to come with yarn and fiber and coupons. i am a sucker for coupons. which continues into...

we got to the commissary by 0930, bought everything we needed (and more) saved almost $14 in coupons and got home before 1015! i did that! with two kids! on payday weekend!!! almost unheard of!

i also have some super creative ideas flowing. some are kind of super secret, the others just have to do with spinning. i love to spin, and i am almost done with two ounces, spun fine, to be plied with another two ounces i have yet to start!

oh.. yeah... and i am pregnant. YAY!

today is one of those days. those days where it isn't even ten yet and already iyou wish it was time to go to sleep. thanks to our dog, i have been awake since five thirty, my kid followed me downstairs screaming, i am fighting non stop with my daughter, the coffee is cold, i have to go to the commissary, and don't have a car, there is mail that needs to be sent off, all of the bathrooms need cleaning, my elbow hurts, and even though i am eating a tad bit better i am still managing to gain weight!

on top of all of that, it feels like me and the kids are on our own little island. just us. and there is nothing here. no awesome waterfalls to swim in, no dharma to keep us mystified. just a tree. the island fever i had living in hawaii has nothing on what i am feeling right now. if it wasn't for the kids i would be depressed and sleeping, but now i am just mad and tired. i need a vacation.

if you were born today: you hit your stride this year and become powerful in a family or other organization.

that is what the virginian pilot tells me.

its my BIRTHDAY!!!

YAY! i love my birthday. so far it has been filled with coffee and knitting on a sock, and lemon cake for breakfast. i also had to call to get my newspaper (they never deliver on wednesday!) but i did get it, and the front page has an ad for "the deal of the day" which in turn reminded me to check out the deal of the day, and what do you know?!?! it is my favorite roving! i think this might be my year of fiber! maybe continuing on into next year when i go (and i AM going) to yarn school. well... maybe... if I can... either way, i think i will buy some fiber for me to spin up, and eat some more cake and ice cream. and a hot link with onions and bell peppers, and some pizza and pasta, and a strawberry mango limeade.