Friday, September 25, 2009

sure its been a rough night. the heartburn is back. jake won't sleep, there was the bath time incidentS, but i have found what makes me feel better. a little bit more Tori and a lot less Mom.

tonight i changed the drive band, and readjusted my spinning wheel. i also put on the new bobbin i got, and the feeds. all this whilst listening to genius on itunes. nothing like old and new technology coming together in harmony to make everything better.

thank you They Might be Giants, the Breeders, SantoGold, Bjork, and Sonic Youth! i can go on a little longer without my brain oozing out of mine ears!

oh... and Cibo Mato too...
i feel like i am newly pregnant all over again. i have been sleeping early (like 9:30) and can't seem to wake in the morning. food is fighting with my guts, and i just haven't been feeling up to snuff. even as i write this, i am not typing at speed, but rather my fingers are meandering across the keyboard. and i get some strange pains in my side. it could be from carrying jake, but appendicitis is never far from my mind, being the hypochondriac that i am.

i am feeling good that the wee babe is developing well, and that i should be hearing from pat sometime soon.

i just thought i would vent a bit.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

20 minutes of reading...

i finally figured out the reason i dislike reading to liz so much... well... some of the reasons...

rarely do i enjoy the books.
i dislike having to make jake sit and listen (i think it takes about the same amount of time)
but the biggest reason is...
ALWAYS in the back of my mind is a hundred other things that need to be done. laundry that needs to be folded, trash that needs to be taken out, the dog that needs in. and reading for twenty minutes is such a non multitasking task, that it drives me bananas! i much prefer to vacuum, or make beds, while doing the laundry and dishes. at least at the end of those twenty minutes there is a tangible difference.
but the reading is so intangible.
i somewhat feel like it is time wasted (although i KNOW its not). it is hard for me to slow down, and appreciate her growing brain, to see that like me (and countless other kids) she has wanted to squeeze all the toothpast out of the tube.
but i have to. i have to slow down.
and although i CAN take care of business in a flash, i need to savor those moments where it is just us, and our love of books.

in a flash!



last month was full of milestones.

it marked a halfway point of being without pat. we are starting the being legs of the downhill slope, and i believe that things can only get better.

it was the also the last month of no school for liz. for the next (hopefully) 17 years or so, she will always have to go back to school in september. i am super glad for her to be in kinder though. not only does it give us some much needed time apart, but jake isn't picked on all day, and i am able to get a lot of housework done.

speaking of housework, sometime last month i washed and folded my 200th load of laundry! there is something to be said about that! i wonder exactly how many tshirts, how many sheets and towels, and how many "little clothes" that actually is. my poor washer is getting tired. i am thinking that along with a new car, this new baby will be needing a new washer dryer. our set was used to begin with, so who knows what hell went through before it got to us...

which leads me into jewelry. ( i know... good segue, huh?) so, while i am pregnant, i can't wear regular tshirts. i can't wear anything aroung my neck that could be constricting, as it leads to a day of nausea, and overall irritability. but, i do continue to wear my necklace. with liz i had a pendant with the infant Jesus, with jake, i was never without my St. Christopher. this wee babe is different. with this one, i don't feel the nervousness, or the need to be inspired by the life of a particular saint. with this one i simply feel the need to get stuff DONE! i feel like i never have time to take for myself. my days are filled with cleaning, and my nights are filled with homework help, and getting the littles ready for bed. so... see? i am always having to DO stuff. and so, i have been wearing the necklace my husband bought me at Graceland. it is a lightning bolt with the initials TCB. it pretty much sums up the boost i need. TAKING CARE of BUSINESS- IN A FLASH!!! it makes me smile that Elvis used it for everything, and it brings me a little closer to my huz... as he IS the one that gave it to me.

we still have a bit of time before pat comes home, and I will probably finish almost three hundred loads by then. but when he comes home, i should probably take off my TCB... for at least a while, i won't want anything to happen in a flash. i want time to slow, and relish the fact that my family will be complete again.