my cup runneth over...

with housework and chores, and taking cars to the dealership, and getting liz to the doctor, and sciatic pain, and lack of sleep.

i need a coke.

freebirthing...

at the rate its taking me to get an appointment to see a doctor, just to get a referral for OB care, i should be seen sometime after the new little starts first grade.

the more and more i live here, the harder it is to like it. anybody want to trade?

i feel a lot better...

after getting off the phone with the idiots at my doctors office, crying a little bit (because i am so mad at the idiots at my doctors office), and calling up tricare to change what Doc i go to, me and the kids went to the zoo. we looked at the ground hogs, and ate lunch. we went to the barnyard, and the snake/nocturnal habitat. we bought new postcards to send to pat, and stopped by 7-11 for bumblebee slurpees (the bizzle in my opinion) and nachos. now we are hanging out, while jake sleeps, and i am on the phone trying to get a new appt with, hopefully, my new non-idiot doctor. i guess it helped having a bit of a cry, and it also helps that i give myself permission to let things go. it kind of feels really new wave to say "i give myself permission" but really, that is what it comes down to. i think i have been too hard on myself. i think my own expectations and idea of what it means to be a single housewife are a bit warped. by what? i don't know. what i do know is that i plan on hanging out a lot more, and doing a lot of deep breathing. i don't want to be stressed out. it isn't good for me... or my kids.

i am turning a new leaf...

or at least i am going to try to. the last couple of days have been really trying for me. i find that i am just plain exhausted! i don't know if it is the pregnancy hormones, or the fact that i have been a single mom for a month, without a babysitter or break. i need to remember, that as much as i want to finish my sweater, i don't HAVE to. it has been chillin' since january... i amsure it won't mind. (although i am sooooo close. just one more sleeve!!!) i need to remember that as much as i miss pat, the kids miss him too. this deployment isn't just happening to me, i shouldn't take it personally. and if all the bathrooms aren't sparkling clean like the commercials that is okay too. as long as they don't smell, i should be okay with it. and i need to remember that as titilating as the laundry is, it is even less exciting to the kids. basically i need to take it easy. care a little less about the cleaning (but not be slobbish about it), and care a little more about having a good time. maybe the long weeks will go faster that way, and i won't miss pat so much...

TODAY IS THE GREATEST...

well... not THE greatest, but it is pretty darn great! Jake is well on his way to being potty trained. he went once because of me, and then again on his own (on his own meaning he told me "potty")! i think it could be the fact that he likes m&ms, and he gets one whenever he goes (not just try... he has to go). it also helps me that liz is encouraged to take him to the pot too. if he goes she gets an m&m too. i am hoping by the end of summer we will be done, for the most part, with diapers... for now.

also on great news going on today... i got my Phat Fiber box. i had to refresh a page for two minutes, but i got it! YAY!!! it is going to come with yarn and fiber and coupons. i am a sucker for coupons. which continues into...

we got to the commissary by 0930, bought everything we needed (and more) saved almost $14 in coupons and got home before 1015! i did that! with two kids! on payday weekend!!! almost unheard of!

i also have some super creative ideas flowing. some are kind of super secret, the others just have to do with spinning. i love to spin, and i am almost done with two ounces, spun fine, to be plied with another two ounces i have yet to start!

oh.. yeah... and i am pregnant. YAY!

CHARGE!!!!

it is getting warmer and stickier here in virginia. we are, all of us, constantly under attack. from mosquitoes, heatstroke, crab grass (that desperately needs to be mowed) and worst of all... ants. there is an army of ants that has made it their only goal to eat my dogs food. no matter how i clean up, they stay. ant bait... they laugh... and so i will head down to the local home depot and get something that will kill the ants but not my babies, or dog. hopefully something in a gel form that i can squish between the floor molding.

other than that, i have been working out, and trying to lose some of this cush i built up. and i have been staving off the scurvy with dried mango i was supposed to send my husband so he doesn't get the scurvy. i can always get more.

on a side note, ranier cherries are in season, and we have been scarfing them down. today will also be spent going to the commissary to buy more. YUM!

AUTO INSURANCE!!!

i am on hold with met life. the only way i could get to a representative was to press a whole slew of buttons on the phone. there is no "talk to a real person button". i think i am going to cancel my policy and go with costco. they are cheaper, and a whole lot easier to get in touch with. anyone have any ideas of who else to go with?