Monday, October 17, 2011

i think i can... (21 weeks)

so i am 21 weeks pregnant...  and i am a sometimes single mom...  there is a lot of things to do, a lot of hugs to give, and a lot of toes to make line up.  there is also not so much time to get that all done.  i have figured out that i can have it two ways... i can have a nice and clean and picked up house, and home made meals every day, but with that comes short temper and hurt feelings, or i can have an ok house, and take out, and be able to sit and watch cartoons with my kids, and everyone can go to bed feeling good about themselves. i am consciously choosing the latter.  and so if that means that the hand towels don't get changed every couple of days, or maybe we have pizza more than one night a week, that is ok.  i am not going to feel bad.  as much as my kids deserve to have a square meal, they also deserve to have a happy mom.

for this week, as well as keeping up on my chores,  i am making an effort to have a half an hour to myself.  for a half an hour the tv can babysit.  and i am going to have a shower and read... or look at a magazine and have a snack, or just lay down.  a half an hour can do a lot in improving my outlook on life, and i am going to take it.  it is what i deserve.

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